i think too much i'm pretty sure.
i think about the future and the hopes and love and comfort and amazements i have to look forward to. with you.
i think about disappointing. a lot. the fleets-through of ideas about how any one will be disappointed in any thing i've done or want to do.
i think about the 'at last' touch. and the final first kiss i'll need. and then a lifetime of learning.
i think the tears will flood my soul until i can get back to you.
i think about the disconnect between what i want my life to be and what i'm living in now.
i think i'm tired and i want a brand new world.
i wish writing these things down would free me of them. but now they're tied to me forever.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Monday, March 7, 2011
on walks.
I used to walk to be alone.
Earbuds in.
Pound down the sidewalk.
Crunch through the snow.
Anger pulsing through my mind
and then melting away.
I still walk because I love it.
Create a path, follow it back.
Free my mind.
Now, you.
You come on my walks with me
from across the ocean.
Waters so vast.
I wish they would drain away.
Then I could walk along the bottom.
Then walk you home with me.
No. My walks are still contained and constrained
by the limits of a life I can't wait to leave behind.
But now when I walk, you're with me.
I talk to you.
I imagine what it would be like to hold your hand and keep walking.
But I return home eventually.
"Although you are not here, I really enjoyed our walk tonight"
Earbuds in.
Pound down the sidewalk.
Crunch through the snow.
Anger pulsing through my mind
and then melting away.
I still walk because I love it.
Create a path, follow it back.
Free my mind.
Now, you.
You come on my walks with me
from across the ocean.
Waters so vast.
I wish they would drain away.
Then I could walk along the bottom.
Then walk you home with me.
No. My walks are still contained and constrained
by the limits of a life I can't wait to leave behind.
But now when I walk, you're with me.
I talk to you.
I imagine what it would be like to hold your hand and keep walking.
But I return home eventually.
"Although you are not here, I really enjoyed our walk tonight"
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